i don't know what to say tonight.

with eyes to the sky
i can see our stars...
the two we chose
on your back porch.
now the sunshine is my biggest fear.
i wait for the west
to bring down the lights
and for the wind from the north
to blow the clouds from the sky
then it's clear as day
that best part of the night
is to see what is yours
sharing space with what's mine.

once, in the past
i left you for dead
and i'm reminded
when the night bring the dawn
i never knew i'd tear us apart
now i wait for the day
when we both find the page
the one that's ready for ink
then we'll start writing
the manuscript and tales
of the stars that can't fall apart
and we'll paint the stars
that fall together
but burn like they burned from the start.

to me we're all just full of our sins
and too naive to think that we can forgive
but to forget is our means to a win.
we won't say...
that we needed this.
we need to live.

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i feel music bellowing up inside me.
i sing in my sleep. i play piano on countertops.
i scare myself.

God is the reason for my joy.
and i am alive because of that.