calling back lonely

belief
is what i believe
we're all missing
and we're leaving
all that's left to be.
believe me
i can clearly see
my blessings
but i refuse to see
me let you leave.
so i'll go on out before you
and try to barricade the door

i suppose we'll never know
what feeling sorry's like
but regret is always something
i know i'll never lack
as long as you're leaving
lonely will be knocking count on that.
he can leave the number on the door
but i won't be calling lonely back

confuse
me for a hoax
for knock knock joke
use me for a laugh
i will split your side
confused
is what you are
and what you'll always be...
until you believe
that you are for me
just don't lose hope

will there ever be a last time
that will be better than the last time?
i just hope a last time means you won't change your mind.
i can be better, and i can be good for you.
i can be everything...
your tears, your dreams...
everything you are to me.

i don't know what to say tonight.

with eyes to the sky
i can see our stars...
the two we chose
on your back porch.
now the sunshine is my biggest fear.
i wait for the west
to bring down the lights
and for the wind from the north
to blow the clouds from the sky
then it's clear as day
that best part of the night
is to see what is yours
sharing space with what's mine.

once, in the past
i left you for dead
and i'm reminded
when the night bring the dawn
i never knew i'd tear us apart
now i wait for the day
when we both find the page
the one that's ready for ink
then we'll start writing
the manuscript and tales
of the stars that can't fall apart
and we'll paint the stars
that fall together
but burn like they burned from the start.

to me we're all just full of our sins
and too naive to think that we can forgive
but to forget is our means to a win.
we won't say...
that we needed this.
we need to live.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i feel music bellowing up inside me.
i sing in my sleep. i play piano on countertops.
i scare myself.

God is the reason for my joy.
and i am alive because of that.